I’ve been here now for 57 years and as Jed would say an expert at treading water for at least 50 of them. I always believed I was smarter than everyone else by far, and at the same time held a disdain for the arrogance of the human ego. After all I wasn’t like that and in control of everything. I even had a bird’s eye view of the whole landscape with perfect navigation skills. I was Maya’s son.
I fell into place with the holy trinity of family, mortgage and career and as life would have it received a rather large dose of heartache’s. These events were tough over 15 years but didn’t move my consciousness one-way or the other or at least I thought. They did however become hallmarks of my life. Oh what a hand I’ve been dealt was certainly the perfect reasoning as to why my lot in life was one lonely march up Calvary. I embraced the tons of sympathy I received by the truckloads from loving friends, relatives and even strangers for years. This just elevated the very special status of me; you know the one life through a curve ball to, the one who owned it. I never realized until Jed how it was one huge bag of rocks that occupied me, defined me and how much I enjoyed carrying that sack.
Spiritually I always fluctuated as a part-time seeker and pretended to understand things when clearly I didn’t. Then one day a dear friend sends E-mail with an excerpt from this book Spiritual Enlightenment the Damnedest thing. He wanted to share the fun and wisdom of what he just read saying he thought it had real spiritual authority and that there were three books in this trilogy. I began reading them never imagining how my life would change, unravel and continues to do so. This guy McKenna wouldn’t let me use my arsenal of delusions, tricks and all the other logics that clogged my spirit but always came in handy in keeping me safe and kept. Jed wouldn’t let me continue that ignorance and stopped me cold in my tracks on the paths I knew so well. He said “No You Don’t” not this time. His between the eyes punches were just what this professional thinker needed, he held me at pause for days on a paragraph, brought tears to my eyes with a sentence and began main lining the truth to my soul and heart.
I am so grateful for the teaching of Jed and the power to break through delusion and to find out what’s going on for myself. It will be a lifetime of work and warfare. Falling down and getting up is something I’ll be getting used to in this process of going further. I am scared and anxious as each of my confinements come under such scrutiny and hopefully begins to burn. I am grateful and humbled to ride the greatest of rides with amazement, waiting to merge again with my universe differently. I am blessed to have met Jed.